oh well. she doesnt snuggle much & she dozes off very early after reading huckelberry finn, poopsy.

Whataday!

step1=jump on alex. step2= international mall for many hrs.
step3=downtown Disney 4 shopping time ahhhg footzies r dead.
step4=sushi from PUBLIX=) (=

i obviously picked up aaren w/chelsea last night very late after sweet TOMATOES!!=DDDD

2morrow could involve many diff. possibilities depending on who's available, maybe tif at aquarium, or corrinne 4 booty shaking at Shapes...or any1 else who hops in2 the picture or masterpiece of life. gosh my life could not get 1 smigdeon better or itd be heaven, holy cow now, brown cow.

my besties finally got 2 meet 2day yayyyy. now i still need lucky lady 4 aaren, ps. hairbear she thinks ur cute!! =DDD =]


i want 2 watch ETERNAL NOW NOW NOW. & 500 days of summer one of these days!!ill go by myself if no 1 will accompany me!!! DANGIT.

might not post 4 a bit, idk how busy ill be.

nothing exciting happened but talking 2 Chris is nice, i slept a lot cause i got woken up, & ended up not doin ANYTHING which blew chunks, i thought i was gonna have 2 babysit so i didnt think about plans.

chels is coming w/me 2 the airport! =] & i might hang w/Tiff & Corrinney soon=))

& i get 2 pick up Chris from the airport=]]]

though he act like a needy gurl.
i talked 2 travdouche 2yrs & we neverrr dated, this kid already wants 2!!
its nice that hes diff. but he constantly texts me & randomly calls!

is this normal???
or am i insisitive?
imma text try to 21222....?

im hoping that he just got Alabama fever & will calm down when he comes back.

he just asked if he could live with me. cause he's being evicted.
WUTTTTTTTT!?!?!?!?! idfu= i dont fucking understand.


he like many other playmates of mine suffers from low self-esteem=/ & needs ego boosting more than once a dy. but ill try it our for a few wks because he's so adorable, & the 1rst guy 2 be really genuine & sweet, hopefully mum isnt buying the dress.

aaren will be here sat. night!! she has some crazi playmate thats trying 2 come see her...wtf. not okay with that at all.

ruined it.

im engaged.
at almost 17.
& not Islamic.

ahhh!=]

my life is rediculous. as in rediculously PERFECT! i dont know y. i dont deserve it, but am happy nonetheless.

i might pick him up from the airport, he wants me to. =]]

put in applications 2day. got poisoned at Tijuana Flats, beeef=[[ spit it out & got it freee, but they still threw it away=[[

alex got her noseyy pierced!

the matter of insurance came up & Chris said he'd tell them that we were engaged so that id be covered lmao.

our mums r planning the wedding.

UAHHHH=)))

GOT A LAPTOP THIS MORNING TOTALLY UNEXPECTED!=]]]=D

i guess im in a bad moodish cause im worried but i shouldnt be..
2day involved polishing silver 4 my grandma cause of my
enormous $1200 debt 2 her..stupid chuckie cheese=/
then choxotica w/helen & erin. followed by driving a lot 2 solve some feminine issues which turned out well 4 erin. i postpones my issues..ish.

my bestie from ky shall be here the 1rst!! wahoo! still searching 4 LESBIANS 4 her !! i need lots!!!!!!!!!!

i really like new navy boii. but prolly cause he's the 1rst guy 2 call me beautiful. i fall 2 fast.

we got married after knowing each other 2wks. holding her hand was the best moment of my life."

ya duh i knew at the time that id have regrets but i wanted them, cause i was bored, stupid, & incomplete.
but i seeked a thrill, & puberty's a bitch. size 13-->0, i wanted it all at the same time=[


so basically i found the "perfect" (subject 2 change as fast as the wind) guy.
well we met when i was a tot, cause our mums did SCA (medieval ren. group) & i lovvvveed him but i was 8 & i loved every1..but at the time i was ugly & chased him, & apparently had coooooties & would get in trouble 4 beating him up..rascal..
FLASH 2 now. his mum messages me on FB looking 4 my mum, then her son adds me & messages me at the same time im searching 4 him lol ..
we've been talking since saturday morn!
his mum JUST left about an hr ago..she taught me self defense against rape cause she was raped in '85! & my mum & her & i of course chatted 4 awhile about him=]]

he however is in Alabama right now helping his uncle w/a kitchen. & will not return til the 10th=[ he did however break up w/his gf 2night=( uhhh didnt know about her & he asked 4 advice! ickk. but they only dated 10 days, so i shall try 2 not do what i alwaysssss do & rush!!

okay so he said that I'm beautiful & have grown 2 be a beautiful young woman" !!!

aww where the fuck have u been?! well he's back in Brandon now!=]] though he's joined the navy! though he doesnt leave 4 almost a yr=] & i am very welcome at his home=)) im every mothers best dream=D lol.

so friday=Bunni, Alex, whit wedding.
Sat= Cape Coral w/daaddda! 4 comedy gig. where i got hit on by 2 CODs!! its CorAL not corl!!
sun= universal & islands of adventure w/Brynners 4 her bday=]]

The day I held her hand". !! He didn't hold his wifes hand til they were married.they talked on the phone for a month met 4 2wks and were married. And their still happy 2gether! Ahhh. At my Muslims friend engagement-wedding ceremony! I'm very underdressed.

yesterday did nothing but fur done & senior pics.

2day was AHHH! got lost 4 2hrs cause i typed the wrong address 4 Bunnie Pics=) =]

i went2 have lunch w/alex & her mum at sunny's.

now i got a freakin engagement partiii go 2. trav is busy & im apparently not allowed in his room anymore..
2morrow i got with dad 2 comedy show far away & stay in hotel..den idk......=p

he said he'd be very upset if i died, that mean he love me.
lmao.

well the other day i was talking 2 a close pal & told her that my def. of love is if i care if some1 dies, that is y i love my friends. other than that i do not believe in love, i believe in whips & chains, which i am about 2 try 2 order online...

any who when i was driving i said i coulda gone then but i care about ur life even if u dont, he didnt hear the ur part & went into how he upset he would be if i croaked. he luvvv me lmao.
its settled then.

well then. i spent 5 hrs at HCC this morning eventhough i got the 1rst apt available..so that fd up going 2 adv. island. we tried the beach instead...did not work out..we went 2 a hookers neighborhood 2 go in her pool..she came out of course hahaha, she does not like me. i call her big bird.

then i picked up alex from work so she could meet tredouche. we went 2 Chilis. i got home hr & a half late but mum was fine w/it cause she has homie over, mylifeisaverage.

wahooooo.

2morrow i become blonde bimbo. & senior pics finallllly=))))]
friday bunny pics. saturday comedy gig w/pops. then IDK=]]]

kievs parti had its highs. . & lows. his gf sweet sweet Sara streaked..& swam nakey.
i ended up sleeping at alexs at 5am til 12 pm.
i dropped her at work. saw travdouche. & went 2 Claire-bear's terrific shaboomboom.
then i lost at Backgammon & Rummy 2 my pops, but it makes him feel good 2 win at something.
2day-came home only 2 bathe & leave for Westshore mall 2 see Trav-douchesicle.
then lazer tag at new xtreme adventures place=))

who knows wut 2morrow brings? maybe new celly.
wed-hopefully shed. classes
thurs-blonde hair & senior pics
friday- Bunny pics=))

They say in drivers ed that by speeding u only save 2-3 minutes as this should be enough of a reason 2 discourage u. they are wrong, because as a teenager that 2 minutes could mean the difference between grounded or not grounded, partying or not, & etc.

i became weak & hung with trav agaiiiiin=[ saw transformers..a masterpiece i slept through..then choxotica of course!!!!!!!!! sam ash-->picnic island-->1rst plant parti. woo.. 2morrow is kievs grad parti, sunday hopefully clairebear bdayyy=]]

2 get back at trav i started talkin 2 david lamb again lmao..he stopped texting others=]]

wouldn't talk to you" -T bag


jssseeeesh. i said fuck fate as advised & got a romantic answer as stated..ughh haha.

yesterday & 2day were SOOO nice i didnt really notice my phone being shut off. my granny was not upset when i told of her credit card bill, she however was not thrilled about my $700 phone bill. . .

=]

so yesterday at Ft. Desoto w/Chels was chilllllllllllllllllllllllllllll.

& 2day we went 2 Pilates, Wiregrass, The Cobb-I Love u beth cooper, & Tijuana Flats. then my mum got me sushiiii=))

i would like a job, now. please=] nah not really im starting that college soon1!

trav actually tried making me feel guilty for leaving the other night..so i suppose we're talking again, but idk, he wont budge, so i feel my only available option is mirking him. thats fair right??

okay so this weekend should be fun! nothingggggg 2 do 2morrow, but Saturday is Kiev's partiii & Sunday should be CLAIRE's if she would give me more dets!! but nooo she's too cool 4 myspace now=[[

night night=]

i sucked it up & got my fuckin shot 2day..

ughh itll prob hurt 2morrow..

w/Chels now=]] we went 2 the beach, choxotica of course cause i go everyday..tilted kilt..& coldstone=)

2morrow Pilates & the movies.

so my phone is not working, though my grandparents get back 2morrow so they can pay my bill.haha.

it just sucks cause u always wonder about lost messages in cyber space=[[

-that does put a damper on our relationship. Watching the Princess Bride:) its been awhile! Every time I get a text I hope its a boob but its not and I doubt it ever will be. Its ironic or coincidental that the one person I do not care for, khalil, insists on pestering me, yet trav has no remorse. I'm so comfortable with him but I know he'll never change. The only thing that bothers me is that my friend aaren told me I overreacted and I was wrong!! But I want an apology..but I was so tired that night..its unfortunate that the number one killer of my friendships or relationships is my own stubborn inactiveness, I always want them 2 apologize first or call first even..and they never do..and ill never know if I missed out.. To trust fate or not to? ?? Spent the entire day toasting at the beach, and 2morrow I shall see Chelseaaaaa and we shall eat chcolate!!!!:)))

2day was stupendous!

played w/helen & Erin at Choxotica & Chuck E Cheeses..then led a stalking...some nice hillbillies named steve, nick, & etc....

then i babysat..& travis has actually been texting me a lot! he usually just texts when he wants me 2 come over but he's been a very good boy 2day & yesterday!!=]

we also kinda discussed going 2 homecoming 2gether, though it wont happen! its nice 2 talk silly!

2morrow i shall go 2 Adv. island w/him & his sister & hopefully not his ex who is his sisters bestfuckingfriend..

ahh well, then i shall go 2 my papa's.

NIGHT!

so 2night ended up SOO emazing!

2day itself not so much fun!!
on account of Helen's delay ruining my hopes & dreams!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! of being a Chuckie Cheese champ!!!=[[[

but then Travis text me & we had a really NICE night=) my entire annoyance w/the day pretty much dissolved=]

so we were suppose 2 go 2 the movies but i wouldnt of had time & the good ones r all rates R!
grrr 58 more days!!

so we went FISHIN', to Steak & Shake lmao, & his place breifly! his family loves me===]
I've always wanted a mother to love me=)

he's so chill & perfect now, but he wants to go back 2 drugs REALLY bad! uggggggh! usually i wouldnt care! but he has an addictive personality & goes straight for harder drugs at the same time!!!=/

he thinks now that he's a senior its like the worst time 2 date cause everyone wants him lmao..but he's not a "player"...uhhhh.
thinkin of that dang Nietzsche quote about not judging people u care about..uhgew.

or y i hate texting period.. it accomplishes NOTHING! i, like my papa, use my phone 2 make calls or plans as it was designed..
especially when my teenage convo's go such as this:

-hey
-hi wuts up?=]
-not much, just on my computer..u?
-reading, lol.
-yeah, lol.
-oh well [INSERT SEXUAL COMMENT HERE]
-lol, really?
-haha maybe...;))



ya so a good texting convo might exist ive just yet 2 experience it..hmmm

-hey beautiful how are you today?
-aww im great, it's a lovely day! How are you??
-I'm doing fine thanks for asking..I cant wait to hang out again I had a lot of fun last time=)
-Ya me too, but im sure you're pretty busy with school..
-Yes I am but I can always make time to talk to you=]


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This will never happen.

ahhhh. well i just read a bit of 2 diff. books & its time 2 indulge in some more soaps..
2morrow needs 2 include CHOXOTICA & possibly a Jew DOUBLE Feature=]]]

im all alone.=]
but 2day has been NICE!

woke up early!! 2 do Pilates at the new Shapes, it was SPECTACULAR!! i felt all my muscles & bones all at once like i never had b4!! haha.

mum talked to another place about getting a job, its by the melting pot & i just got home from dropping off an application=)
so the coffee shop when school starts i hope, & hopefully an interview soon=]]

im so tired!! AHH!

oh im babysitting Saturday!! yayyyy i wanted 2 email her but im glad she contacted me 1rst!! wahooo=] my life is so easy & perfect!

t-bag thinks he'll have 2 much hw this weekend but he'd get back 2 me..boi i got betta plans than Steak & Shake funtime .. lol..

i know gambling will be fun 2morrow w/little Helen jellin..i wonder if i can use a credit card 2 get coins......